I am a very judgmental person, and so when I walk along the street I see this threatening looking guy with a pitbull dog and I think… or I walk behind a very over weight girl that looks like she couldn’t find her jeans and grabbed her little sisters because she was in a hurry, and I think… or I talk to a guy in the store that clearly has no education and don’t know what he’s on about and I think… constantly these thoughts coming up when I see people. But at this stage I know that these are not my thoughts. They are clouds that come and go. I did not make an effort to arrive at them or make a logical deduction. They are simple thoughts like: “is this green or turquoise? Good or bad? Beautiful or ugly?” So, I instead of trying to stop them which I can’t or being hard on myself, I apologize. To myself. I say; “I am so sorry about these horrible thoughts that you have to bear, such rubbish. I know it is so hard to have them go through you. Whoever sends them, please be tolerant with them. Please forgive them for this ungraciousness.”

And then the magic. I suddenly feel a love replace these thoughts. Because there is recognition of the suffering I am enduring. A warmth flow through me. I taste it and realise it is a love. And when all these people see this love in my eyes, and don’t react like they usually do. And I realise that the harsh thoughts are on me and not them. I do not allow them to be them, because I am so hard on myself. If I must do all the hard stuff then so should they. So, loving my self is also to forgive myself. You are a good person through and through and you deserve love. Love directed at yourself. I am one with them. There is not separation. Feeling love for me is feeling love for them.

And now when I see someone unaware they have ice-cream on their chin I skip the middle and go straight to the warmness in my chest. And there is quite in my mind.

And this reversal is to be found several other places in the mind, that ends with love of self. Focus is on the external world when it is really in yourself the white stone is hidden.

Depression is a function, not a sickness.

It is a mechanism to drive you home. It is like hunger – it is manifested in the physical. It’s not just an idea or thought. It’s more than that.

Look back to the time of cavemen. What is preventing them from riding of into the sunset and never returning? Depression is a severe form of home sickness.

But in modern society home has been redefined. And you can get the feeling of not being home even though you are at home.

To get rid of the depression you must find a way home in your head.

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You will find no answers to your ailment in the past.

Only in the now can you see what ails you. It almost always has to do with experiences in the past. But only by looking at the now, at the result can you understand or find peace or compassion.
The suffering has often permuted many times, so if you look from the past you will never see the relation. Only looking from the now can you see the resulting form. Only seeing the form clearly do you know what must be done.

You are walking down the street and you see a man under a street lamp looking for something. So you offer to help him look. After a while still not having found the item you ask him where exactly he lost it. And he says that he lost it in the street one block over. You are flabbergasted at this, and ask why you are look here when he has lost the item in another street. He answers; “well this was the only place that had a street lamp so you could see anything”.

It is like that looking into the past. You got it the wrong way round. You must look deeply into the heart instead.

If you look really hard you’ll see there is only two emotions. Fear and Joy.

All growth – no exceptions –  is cancerous until something arises that keeps it in check. Growth has no inherent self control. This is the natur of growth. It is because of the lack in control that it grows.

It is always some other existence keeping it in check. This creates diversity. Everything in the universe obeys this fact. Thus it is the law of diversity.

Our ego-construct as well. Unchecked it creates decease. Higher self is the diversity.

If I told you that I could make you truly happy. So happy that you would feel like bursting. And not just today, but for the rest of your life.

I would  make your life utter bliss. How much would you be willing to pay?

I mean really. People pay gladly to have their breast made bigger. But happiness for the rest of your life?

OK, now you have decided on a figure. And you are not a cheap person, so it was probably a large number.

That “figure” is what you are now paying for not being happy, living the material life of the west.

Every answer you get that has a voice is an ego-answer. There must be absolutely quite in your head if you want to hear your inner “voice”, your being.

Every break through I have ever made came to me without a voice. I could see the answer. The words came later.

Panic arise when you are afraid of being anxious. It is a race-condition.

The biggest weakness of all is the fear of appearing weak.