Monthly Archives: March 2013
Love without criteria
One of the most important discoveries is the ability to love without criteria. Myself and others. No distinction.
When I am weak I am filled up with love and tenderness. I cry too. Not from grief but from the beauty and fragility.
Now is safe
I sense that when I am focused in the moment, in the now, all doubt and mental gibberish evaporates.
Conversely when I sense an uncertainty or my thoughts are eradic, I know I am in the past or the future.
The observer
Talking to Louise (who is visiting) about the quietness or the non-thinking.
She says that in the morning she likes to cycle quietly to work. Not thinking and just sensing the city and the fog or the cold. But then after work is over and going home she lets it loose.
Quote: Going home I just let it run wild.
It is so clear to even the uninitiated that there is the observer and thinker. And also, the thinker is clearly not identified as the person, but some “thing” inside us.
Think about that sentence. “I shall let it run wild”.
It could almost not be spelled out more clearly. There it is; the you and the ego.
Loneliness
On Saturday I was finally well enough to get out of bed. (Was sick like a dog for a week from some local Balinese flu virus. They had to call the doctor. Eating pills like candy)
On two separate occasions that day I got this deep feeling of loss, or loneliness that I had felt the day Louise had left to go home again after staying 3 weeks. But it was, on closer introspection, also filled with deep love and tenderness.
Loneliness it seems is love that has been orphaned.
We all know that it is possible to have the feeling of loneliness even when we are together with lots of people. Being with other people has got nothing to do with the emotion of loneliness.
Loneliness arises when you have much love inside you that has no channel to pass through.
Some may also think that love that is channelled must be reciprocated by somebody else. But that is not so. Only the ego requires this. You can love without being loved back. In fact you would be well advice to not set a criterion for loving.
Who am I
You are not defined by the people you are surrounded by. It is only your ego-identity that thinks that reflections from outside your self are actually reflections on you as a person.
Only your ego is dependent on others. Your true self is much much more constant.